Monday, March 30, 2020

Just Typing What I Want To Do Instead of Doing It So There Would Be No Casualties

1. Scream REALLY loud.
2. Punch the computer screen.
3. Flip the computer table.
4. Break the walls.
5. Break our dog's ribs.
6. Bash someone's head.
7. Smoke.
8. Break the dishes.
9. Throw something really hard.
10. Throw something really hard on someone.

Sunday, March 29, 2020

Just Wondering What's With the Sudden Interest in Me

My elementary teachers are one by one sending me friend requests on Facebook. Help. Haha. One even chatted me. I am not ready for this. Lol

Friday, March 27, 2020

Thursday, March 26, 2020

Just Thought I Had Something Two Days Ago But Nah It's One of Those Things I Start But Not Finish Again

Night time, the bats have replaced the birds
Still,  I like watching them from my window
Why am I still awake,  even
Cannot sleep, can you?

I hit you up
You don't reply
I continue staring at the view
I space out
Heart's faster
Feet cold
Fingers tremble
Need distraction

Try to remember
I'm not alone
Don't let it get me

Tuesday, March 24, 2020

Just Stringed Instrumentalist Things

Sometimes you have to cut your fingernails even though you don't want to because your fingertips can't reach the fretboard anymore.

Thursday, March 19, 2020

Just That This Whole Season 6 of Steven Universe Really Hits Too Close to Home

Abandonment anxiety is one of the worst things you could ever feel and seeing it actually visualized with Steven is making me feel bad. Peridot seeing it through his dream and reassuring him she isn't leaving him still makes me cry.

Tuesday, March 17, 2020

Just a Poem That I Might Make Into a Song Based From My Dream Earlier

Take me to a place where there are a lot of flowers
I need to smell them since the rest of life does not seem to care
I need to remember that not everything is bad
Let me know that at least they are there

Turn my sight away from what makes my heart ache
Because all just reminds me that I am not doing so good
Help me realize that I should not let go of everything at this point
Just need a little break

The flowers bloom after the bees help them
They will be better after it rains
They will no longer burn under the blazing sun
They will spread joy and get it done

Do not bring them to me
If you pick them, they will die
Lead me to the blossoms
Make this worthwhile

Just That Everything Has a Consequence

The things we do without thinking.