Thursday, May 28, 2015

Just Late Night/Early Morning Thinking

Please, for once, do not let me do the serenading. I am a girl and the girl should be the one who is to be serenaded, right? That's why most of the songs I like are the ones in which a guy sings.

I like to express my mood through a song. Right now, it's still Darlin' by Between the Trees. Specifically the lines, "and darling i f you're wondering, here's your answer, yes I like you. I can't love you. I can't love you. Oh atleast I do not think I do, yet." Yeah, kind of cheesy.

Last night we hugged and then he kissed my cheek. I felt nothing. I don't know if I should post this or keep this private. No one reads my blog anyway, so I'll post it anyway. Also no one really knows Lana Slaybell.

My head hurts. I drank some cola a while ago. I'm not allowed to drink cola, as told by the doctor. I like to live dangerously. I don't really know what my illness is... or was. I haven't asked.

1:43 am. Now playing: The Day You Said Goodnight by Hale. Hale is a Filipino band. What more should I type? I know, I should stop. Time to say goodnight. The timing of the song is perfect. Well now... Goodnight.

Monday, May 18, 2015

Just Random Typing

My favorite band is My Chemical Romance. Listening to them makes me feel like I am not alone. But, it makes me sink into this despair state I am in. My other favorite band is A Rocket to the moon. If I want to be happy, I listen to them. If I want to be sad, I listen to MCR. These bands are like Yin and Yang to me. But it sucks that both of my favorite bands are now separated. So, because of that, there is no such thing as forever. Just kidding.

I like watching leaves fall. It kind of gives a serene feeling. It's calming.
This gif isn't mine. It's ChuuStar's from DeviantArt.

Another thing I like watching is rain. I mean, who doesn't like watching rain? I like the sight, smell, feeling, and sound of rain. The only thing I don't like about rain is that I catch a cold the next day, and that of it causes floods.

I haven't really watched My Neighbor Totoro. But, I am going to, soon. Don't spoil anything.

What else... I am better than last year. I lost some of my weight. I gained (not weight) new friends this year.

I am an introvert. When at a social gathering, I don't talk much. Others claim they are introverts, but they talk much at social gatherings. I don't know what to think of them. It's better not to judge. Not like any other introverts who don't hate people and get mad at people for stereotyping them that they hate people, I do dislike people. Don't take this the wrong way. I like having friends. It's the crowds I dislike. I don't like crowds. So I don't dislike people, I dislike crowds.

I'm just not a people's person. I don't talk much. I also wonder why people like me.