Monday, September 18, 2017

Just Thirteenth Day at OG

I logged in at 9. Logged out at 7. Did the beddings, swept the floor, dusted shelves, changed the trash bins, restocked amenities, segregated the received bed sheets and delivered them to designated floors, and cut some newspapers to be used in wiping glass. I kissed Sir Fred and Inah on tnhe cheek. I just feel like kissing people when I wear red lipstick. I haven't kissed anyone on the lips ever in my life, though. I also wish I would be done with my on-the-job training. It's just so tiring. I still have lots of requirements even though I have only 3 subjects.

Sunday, September 17, 2017

Just Twelfth Day at OG

I only worked for four hours so I could go to Church. EJ had a black eye. I worked one beddings.

Just Eleventh Day at OG Part 2

It was sir Fred's birthday. He made me make up a double bed again. There were rooms rented by a couple about to be wed. When we were about to clean one, the guest said they'll just call when the room needs cleaning. After that, we rested until 10pm

Friday, September 15, 2017

Just Tenth Day at OG

I went to OG after our exams by 9:30. Speaking of the exam, my hand was shaking while I was holding my pen as I was trying to answer. I was seated in front and I was using my phone by my side. Sir doesn't really care if we cheat, but boy, was I nervous. Back at OG, they were already attending rooms. I tried to some bed making but EJ would come and help/take over. I would end up sweeping or dusting. I went back to school for my English class. As I came back, Sir Fred just timed in. I went to the second floor where Ma'am Beb and Sir Ariel resided. Sir Ariel said that I have already come back but Fred still hasn't arrived. I told them that he already did. They left to Ladislawa and let Sir Fred clean the bathrooms. I stayed with him to help. I logged put at 8pm.

Thursday, September 14, 2017

Just Ninth Day at OG

Before I went to work, I first went to school to have my Housekeeping NCII assessment. I'm happy to say that I am now competent. After that, I went to OG. I logged in at around 1pm. When I got to the housekeeping office, the RAs were awake. There was a guy sleeping on the floor. It was an old trainee who just came back from their retreat. His name is EJ. Now the office was crowded. When we went to attend rooms, the rooms were also crowded. There are 5 trainees in total: Me, Jerlie, Inah, Dawnna, and EJ. There were also 3 RAs present, making it 8 people. So I went away because I knew I would be a bother if I try to help. The laundry delivery had arrived so I went back to the office with Sir Ariel to assist in receiving. After receiving, they went to attend more rooms. I stayed behind to segregate the bed sheets. Jerlie and I counted the dirty napkins and sorted the linens. After those, there wasn't much to do, yet again. I went to dinner at Jollibee to treat myself for passing NCII. I also applied correction tape on the pad of mini bar slips. I changed the number of items of various snacks to 1. Also, they noticed the drawing I did last night, which I pinned on the cork board. Ma'am Ta-ta showed it to Ma'am Irene,, the OJT in charge, and now she wants me to draw for her. Actually, they all now want me to draw for them. I'm being discovered. Lol. I don't want the attention anymore. This is what I get for showing off.

Wednesday, September 13, 2017

Just Eighth Day at OG

I'm sooo sleepy right now. I don't want to type this now but I have to. I don't really have to, you know, but I need to continue the flow and not break or skip a day. Anyways, I had my yearbook pictorial today. I hope the shots would turn up great. After that, we had our semifinal exam in English. I hope I did well. I think I did, but ma'am would always see the errors for further improvements.

So, my eight day of training at Orange Grove Hotel... There was not much to do. Sir Fred would cover the night shift while Sir Jimboy would cover the graveyard shift. Today is also ma'am Beb's birthday, but it's her day off. She left money for lechon, though. There was really not much to do. Ma'am Larry/Larrie asked us to clean the admin's office even though I vacuumed it yesterday. We cleaned it anyway while we were placing bath towels in rooms that did not have them. After that, there wasn't really anything, to be honest, so Sir Fred made me do his calculus assignment. I was like wtf. Haha. But I didn't mind, though, because I like math.

Tuesday, September 12, 2017

Just Seventh Day at OG

I arrived around 12:30pm. Everyone  was on a break. Because there were a lot of us, only two attended rooms and the rest went to clean the hallway. The people from Sales asked us to vacuum their office, also to include the Admin's office. I did it. It wasn't really a busy day. Every one was sleepy. I can't believe I'm saying this but I missed Sir Fred. Haha. It's his day off, you see. I completed a sudoku puzzle with the free time I had. I'm not gonna go for other minor details anymore because they weren't that important. Also, I met Sir Ariel's daughter.

Monday, September 11, 2017

Just Sixth Day at OG

I really want to sleep right now. All I can say is that the highlight of the day is that I prepared a room for a check-in but I was not yet finished and the guest caught up to me while I was still in the room (ssshhh, don't tell anyone). Also, Sir Fred talked about bipolar all because I said I was not allowed to eat chocolate (he was eating double dutch ice cream and was willing to share) and it was so triggering. Haha. Also, a new trainee named Dawnna came in.

Sunday, September 10, 2017

Just Fifth Day at OG

Same as yesterday, I logged in at 8. Only Ma'am Ta-ta and Ma'am Beb were the present room attendant. Sir Fred timed in at 2. Ma'am Ta-ta won the betting game they do, last two, as we call it, and treated us halo-halo for lunch. She is kind enough to do the beddings herself and I would just sweep the carpet and dust the tables. There were still a lot of rooms that needed cleaning. A lot of guests left behind food and the RAs would just eat them. They're still clean. Also, while cleaning room 406 (I can't really remember if it was really 406) each of us, Ma'am Beb, Ta-ta and I, received a tip of Php 100. I didn't even do that much. Lol. I was supposed to log out at 5pm but Sir Fred asked me to clean a couple more rooms with him. He keeps telling me that I do stuff slowly. Haha. The last room we attended had a double bed. He made me do it myself. I kept grumbling while doing it. I took my time. While I was doing it, he already cleaned 2 other rooms. Haha. He came back to me and I was still doing the bedding for the double bed. When I finished, it was not even presentable, but he still went with it anyway. Hahahaha. When we came back to the office, he told Ma'am Ta-ta what happened. I laughed it off the whole time. I wish myself good luck tomorrow, because Sir Fred and I will be partners. I will take the afternoon shift with him. Good luck, future me.

Saturday, September 09, 2017

Just Fourth Day at OG

I logged in at 8am. This time, I did not leave, because I did not have class the whole day. It was a very busy day. I sweated buckets. There were 20+ check-ins. Because my sweat was dripping, I wrapped my face towel around my forehead and tied it at the back of my head. I also wore my face mask because it would drip from my chin. When the RA saw what I did, they were wondering, like amazed, or surprised. I can't find the right word. Haha. The RAs present were Sir Ariel, Ma'am Ta-ta and Ma'am Beb. Sir Fred's shift was at 2 pm. Sir Ariel and Ma'am Beb kept flirting with each other. They were both married with other people, but they were just flirting as friends, maybe for some fun in work. Lol. I noticed that I really take time doing the beddings, because when I and an RA would start at the same time, or even when I start first, I always finish minutes after the RA done theirs. They would even volunteer to finish it for me, as they can see I was struggling, with my sweat and all. It wasn't really a struggle. I don't really mind doing it. It's just the pesky sweat glands. Maybe I shouldn't drink a lot of water before work. Maybe I wouldn't sweat so much.

Friday, September 08, 2017

Just Third Day at OG

I went to the hotel at 10 am after class. I still had to return to school by 2 pm. My fellow trainees, Jerlie and Joy, were present. The room attendants, Ma'am Ta-ta, Ma'am Beb and Sir Ariel were also there. They already started cleaning rooms. There were a lot to clean. But, I did not do much of the beddings because Joy does them. She wants to, I think. During our break, they keep questioning whether I was bisexual or not. People really don't believe me when I say I haven't had relationships ever. Meh. I learned how to do make up beds, where the guests have not checked out yet but the beds need to be made. I met the supervisor, Ma'am Larry, or Larrie, I don't know how to spell her name. She was there because she wants to try changing the laundry service provider, since the sheets don't look that white amymore. Hmmm... What else did we do? The Front Desk got requests relayed wrong twice. I went to room 406 to deliver two bottled waters but no one answered. The guests were out so I should have given it to the front desk directly. The second was when room 304 ordered towels but they said 204 so sir Ariel went there however I told him it was actually 304. Yeah. I don't want to bore you reading all these. That ends it. I'm just journaling what happens in my ojt because we need to write them down on a notebook. I'm too lazy to do that. Typing and posting it here is easier. So yeah, I'll type all of my days at OG here until I've already reached my required number of hours rendered.

Thursday, September 07, 2017

Just Second Day at OG

I logged in at 8 am, had to leave at 10:30 for my class. Before leaving, I met the other room attendants and another trainee. They were Ma'am Ta-ta and Sir Jimboy. The other trainee was Jerlie. I got to do the beddings with Jerlie. We had to help sir Jimboy lift beds because he isn't supposed too much effort since he just had his tooth pulled out. I also found one peso in a checked out room we were cleaning. Joy wasn't there. She was absent. Anyways, I left and came back by 12:45 pm. When I arrived, the three of them were resting. After that, we continued cleaning rooms and changing sheets. There were a lot of check-ins today. By late afternoon, we had to change from comforters to bed runners in various rooms. I also had interactions with guests. One particular thing happened where I was flustered when one requested to bus out some dishes from their room, and I had to tell it to Sir Ariel, so he called the F&B Department. I wasn't sure if I told him the right room number so I checked, and the guest saw me while he was taking out the dishes by the doorway. So I got rattled and took some of them instead so he wouldn't think I'm a lousy worker for not getting them immediately. I left some by the door. Bah, this is a long story. I'm too lazy to go on telling it. I'll just stop here.

Just First Day at OG

I just got home from my first day of training in the housekeeping department of OrangeGrove Hotel. I think it was a good day. Most of the time I sat idly not knowing what to do. I guess that's a good thing because I'm a lazy person. By the time it got late, around 8 o'clock, the current room attendant (RA), sir Ariel, taught me how to do the beddings. They already taught us that last semester from our housekeeping subject, but it's a good refresher. They did things differently. It's true that each hotels have different standards. Anyways, I like sir. He's friendly and kind. He makes too much phonecalls, though. By 10 o'clock, his shift ended, and sir Fred took over for the graveyard shift.

Sir Fred taught me what to do when a guest checks in. We have to get the room ready before the guest goes into the room. We should turn on the electronics, especially the air conditioner. We should also spray the room with some air freshener. I also delivered extra pillows and slippers as requested by the guests. Then, because we had nothing else to do, we folded some newspapers to use in wiping mirrors and covering trash cans. I could say today was a productive day for me. I like sir Fred. I'd like to point out that he's gay here.

What struck me this evening was the conversation I had with a worker. I think his name was Lester. He asked me if I was alone, and sir Fred interjected if he meant loner. Then, asked me if I attempted suicide. In my head I was like ohmygod but I kept a straight face. He and sir Fred kept talking in the background while I tried to keep my composure. I lied about it, but I could feel my lie as my voice croaked. I think he didn't notice it. I hope he didn't. He said he wanted to change my boring life, be more outgoing. I hate him already. Introversion is a bad thing. I get it. He wants to change my lifestyle for the better. His views are right. He's the better guy. He's full of himself. Fuck you, Lester.

Wednesday, September 06, 2017

Just Starting to Get Stressed

Today is the day I'm going to start my training. I've decided to work until midnight every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. I hope I'll be able to finish soon and survive while I'm at it.

Sunday, September 03, 2017

Just that Talking is a Bother

I don't like girl talk. Talking alone aready is a pain how much more if it's girl talking. Most of the time I end up hanging out with girl friends because if I hang out with guys they end up having feelings with me or I would end up being mistaken with being in a relationship with them. Most of the time, I don't relate with people in general. But with girl talk, it's like a slap to the face. Sure, I'm a girl, and I'm supposed to be okay with it or something. However, I'm not that type of fool who would want to engage with such shallow topics, like the brand of shirts or shoes you wear, the routine you do for your skin, the people you like, who's dating who, or whatever. I'm just forced to listen and engage to these type of conversations so I wouldn't be judged and they would end up leaving me behind, which is fine by me but a person somehow needs other people. Bah.

Edit: I just had a girl talk through DMs with my friend and I feel my own hypocrisy. I may say that this was different because of some context that I may explain, but doing so after typing this post is just inexcusable. I don't know anymore. I'll just rephrase my first sentence in thisnpost. I may like girl talk on certain contexts.

Friday, September 01, 2017

Just Warcraft III: Reign of Chaos

I want to play Warcraft III again. It had a lot of awesome cinematics and cutscenes. I loved the lore. I want to feel the nostalgia. It's been years since I last played it. I would use cheats back then because I was a kid therefore I didn't have a lot of skills plus slow reflexes. I really especially loved the cinematics, like the one when Arthas killed his father. That scene gave me chills. It was awesome. Also that scene where Archimonde destroyed the kingdom with just his sandcastle thingy. It was fucking awesome. I am just saying this because I've been playing a lot of DOTA lately and the heroes were from Warcraft but with different names and skills. I just miss it. I just really want to feel the nostalgia.

Thursday, August 31, 2017

Just Rammbabbli Rambling Ramble

Last night I dreamed a lot of people jumping from a building, so many that they all piled up outside the window, kind of like a thousand people stacked with each other. It looked like a mass suicide. This may be because I watched Koe no Katachi yesterday, where the protagonist tried to jump from her apartment, but the other protagonist tried to pull her in and he fell instead. The building also looked like the o e in school. The dream may also be coming from what I typed yesterday.

My right eyelid keeps twitching. I've been drinking a lot of water. Maybe I shouldn't use the computer that much.

I need to go to the hotel to get a follow up on my ojt. I should have went last week. Fear always gets in the way.

I don't want to exist.

Wednesday, August 30, 2017

Just Typing on Whatever

What should I write about this time?

It seems like life does not ever run out of drama, not that there is one in mine. It's just that there is a lot out there, especially on social media. People seem to find or make ways to start one, like what I am doing now. I'm making a lot of drama about drama. Drama is supposed to be entertaining, captivating its audience, but when it is already in real life, it is too much.

We never run out of conflicts. Once we solve a problem, another one will soon arise, no matter what. I remember Jake the Dog's quote from Adventure Time that to live life, you need problems. If you get what you want the minute you want it, what's the point of living? I know that there really is a writer behind that quote but the credits went to an imaginary dog. Shame. Anyways, the quote is kind of right. It is also kind of wrong. If to live is to solve every problem we encounter, what kind of purpose is that? My perception is getting fucked up again with all these hormone imbalances. I had a migraine this afternoon. It started with a blind spot in my vision. Then it spread to the upper left of my view. I then got a headache after the zigzag blurriness went away. I Googled migraine and it was called aura.

It's gonna be September soon and it's gonna be the end of the year soon. I will be a year older and I will be an adult. I don't like the thought of it. I don't really seeing myself reaching 30 or at least I don't like thinking I could reach that age. I'm not really in the right mind saying this. I might be wrong. Maybe I could exceed being 30 years old. Maybe I would even outlive every one I know. Who knows, right?

I'm still nineteen. My cousin's death anniversary from the Roxas Bombing last year is this Saturday. I don't know what to say about that.

Maybe punk rock is not dead after all. No one said it died, but they are not as big as it was in the 2000s. I'm stuck in the music from that time. I recently heard of Neck Deep. They give me the pop punk vibes, the kind that I would listen to, the kind that would give me that feeling that I want to feel. I still want My Chemical Romance to come back, even when they are different now, especially Gerard.

One of the puppies is really annoying. They are 5 months old now. Three were given away. We have three pups left with us. I want this one annoying pup gone. She keeps jumping on us. She also has a sharp voice that really pierces through your ears. She fights with her sister all the time. Sure, she's cute when she's all peaceful. I just want her given away to a better owner.

I've gone far from the primary topic. I could really be that random. Lol. I'm still bothered by the antipsychotic drugs I took years ago, whether or not I had or still have schizophrenia or not. I don't want to talk anymore, not that I'm talking. Lol. 

Monday, August 28, 2017

Just My New Avatar 3

Since it's been a month when I've had my haircut, and my hair isn't brown and long anymore, I'm changing my avatar again. I did a quick sketch just now and I'm sticking with it. I'm too lazy to draw in my face's details. Lol

Not my avatar anymore

My avatar now

Just Do Not Bring Us, Please

My God,
If this is a test,


I will try to pass it
with flying colors


I will just continue
what I usually do
during tests,

which is to not care at all
and hope for the best

Sunday, August 27, 2017

Just Freaking Fines

I'm thinking a lot about the Php 2400 that's gonna be fined to me in the later months for not attending the 4-day intramurals. I've come to the conclusion that it's worth it. Not having classes or activities for four days is worth it. If I need to look at it at a different angle, vacation is to be paid. So yeah, whatever. The student council can be corrupt. But at least I'm well-rested for a couple of days. I'm paying for it.

Saturday, August 26, 2017

Just Two for Two

Two nights in a row having nightmares. I was chloroformed, cut with a razor, chased, and judged. I got my phone stolen and I'm trying hard to remember what else happened. I was in the debate and I was the last one to talk. I was reading my speech and the crowd was wondering what was happening to me. I was reading it wrong and they asked me if I was okay. I said I wasn't and walked out. I ran and hid then I saw my high school math teacher for a brief moment while I was going away. There were a lot of beggars and some of them look like they want to hurt me. They did. That was some nightmare, I tell you.

Anyways, there was a change of plans regarding my friends birthday celebration today. Turns out, it won't be happening. I don't have to buy a gift anymore or at least go out of the house. That's good news for an introvert like me.

Friday, August 25, 2017

Just Dreaded Sleep

My dreams today were a series of nightmares. I wake up then fall asleep again to another nightmare. But more importantly, I need a lot of money. I haven't attended our intramurals and the fine will reach about Php 1800. Lol. I also want to buy a gift for my friend tomorrow. It was her birthday yesterday and we're gonna celebrate it tomorrow.

Thursday, August 24, 2017

Just Being a Pro in My Dream

I had a dream that I was playing Dota with a joystick on my phone.

We were team mates with my sis then she left then my bro took over her, lent me a joystick so I could continue playing as Crystal Maiden. I woke up before we could finish the game.

I knew that I would dream about the game before I fell asleep. Lol.

Sunday, August 20, 2017

Just a True Story

I was playing with a coin in the living room but then I dropped it and it rolled all the way to the dining room so now I am typing this instead of getting it.

Friday, August 18, 2017

Just No Activities

I did not do anything productive today.

Just Some Activities

I finished reading Dean Koontz' By the Light of the Moon. It took longer than I usually take. But what do I know? I used to be a book-hater, like I didn't think I could even read a single book in my life. Anyways, it wasn't really my genre. If you like adventure, sci-fi, and thriller, then you might like it.

We're gonna have our intramurals next week. I'm still contemplating if I should go, or I should just pay the fines and not go. Sometimes the fines are worth it. I hate activities. Plus, I don't have friends to share the experience with.

I'm going to start my on-the-job training soon. I hope I'll get my hours done early. I also hope to lose weight on the process, because it's gonna be tiring.

Our puppies keep peeing and pooping. It smells bad on the terrace. They're cute, though. Why do they have to be so cute?

Common conversations I had for the past two weeks was about my hair, why I cut it, it suits me, yadda yadda. I hope it dies next week. I hope no one is going to comment about it anymore. Lol.

Tuesday, August 15, 2017

Just Around Six Seconds

Yesterday, we had our Engish midterm exam.
You were positioned southeast of me.
Class hasn't started yet.
Our teacher was still making final seating arrangements.
Then you sat beside me,
to my right.
You don't deserve to be written about here.
Here, in this blog,
with you, as the second person.
You were staring at me since day 3, I think.
Don't you know it's normal for me to smile at strangers?
You talked to me.
You flirted.
I hate flirting.
I maintained eye contact.,
tried to memorize your eye color,
tried to win the staring contest,
tried to focus on your right eye,
your dark brown  eye,
around 6 seconds.
I break.
Don't talk to me anymore.

Monday, August 14, 2017

Just Our English Requirement

Y'know, I really much prefer working alone, even if it means the task is doubled. That's what I am doing right now for our requirement in English. Instead of working in a group of three, I am doing it alone. Each group was tasked to write twelve letters. There are 36 people in the class. Which means, we are evenly divided to three. The problem is, I don't know which group is lacking, because I don't know all of my classmates, in which because I am an irregular student.

I am pretty much okay with single-handedly writing twelve letters. But these letters are Customs-related assignments. Ma'am didn't really give me a break. She really thought that I would be working with a group. It's okay, though. I am that versatile.

I am on the fourth letter now. I don't worry that much because the deadline is on Thursday, three days from now. Most cool people would be working on it the day before, or even on the due date. Anyways, the task on the fourth letter is to inquire to a Brokerage about how the products are delivered on time and at what good cost. Dfq should I know what they do in brokerages. Heck, what in my-hospitality-management-shit-induced-goddamned-brain is a brokerage? Bah, I need a break.

I am starting to second guess in working this through alone. But hell, I have always been alone.

Saturday, August 12, 2017

Friday, August 11, 2017

Just Insert Title Here

My body wants something
I tell it no
It craves for affection
I have contempt those
It is times like this
where everything is conflicted
The body wants what it wants
but my mind has the control over it
Body has never won
I own it.
In a few days
it will punish me
with a bloodbath
for not giving it
what it wants.

Thursday, August 10, 2017

Just When I Did Not Procrastinate, Something Like This Happens

Procrastinating is a bad thing, so I did not do it. But I could have avoided being exhausted if I actually did it this time. What a great timing.

Let me explain. We have this workshop which was originally supposed to be done by group. But yesterday, our teacher's buttons were pushed so she decided to assign us to write 5 letters individually to be passed later by midnight. I already made those letters before she sent the text stating that she changed her mind and it is back to being by group. I'm just on tilt right now. I spent around 5 hours making those letters. It could have been longer when I'm with my group, though. Who knows.

Tuesday, August 08, 2017

Just Felt the Pain

A nightmare woke me up just now. A guy kept cutting me with a razor. In the previous dreams I would see him save kids from a river. His modus was to push them in the river and save them so people would reward him with something to eat. I guess I was his next victim, the unlucky sap who happens to sit beside him in the jeep.

Monday, August 07, 2017

Sunday, August 06, 2017

Just Understand It If You Can. You Probably Won't because You're Not Me

When I ask a question with a "why", I do not mean the question in a literal sense.


"Why do we have to eat?"

The literal answers would be "so we would live" "to nourish ourselves" "for survival".

What I meant with the question is "Why must we have to eat? Why must it be that way? Why do we have to eat for survival?".

And I often get lost in these thoughts. I try to feel my consciousness as I close my eyes and think deeply.

Then I'm too conscious of my consciousness.


Before I was born, I had no consciousness.
I have one now.
Do I really exist?

I close my eyes and feel my memories.
My experiences are so far away.
I try to feel my heartbeat in my head. Pulse, is more like it.

I close my eyes and open them as I type.


Wednesday, August 02, 2017

Just Dumb Luck

I was playing 4 pics 1 word just now and I was frustrated because I did not know the word so I typed FUCKR at first because of my frustration then normally, it would be wrong because fuckr is not a word and then I typed in a word that rhymed which is FROCK and little did I know, it was the right answer. Lol.

Friday, July 28, 2017

Just Darn Kids

On my ride home on the jeep today, there was a high schooler, three of them, in fact. As one lad was about to get off, the driver got mad at him because the lad did not pay, as what he could remember. Then there was a dispute. This lad was disrespectful and was raising his voice. There was a dispute. The driver just said that paying or not, he should just get off. The driver was still complaining that kids from City High always do that. They ride in groups of five then two of them won't pay. When the other kid got off (he paid, of course), he was looking at the driver with contempt, like he was a drug addict, or something. Kids aren't supposed to be like that. Kids, like 15-year olds, I mean. Then again, most people unleash their inner evil when they are juniors in high school, according to what my junior high school adviser said.

Monday, July 24, 2017

Just Hmmm

Hmmm... What should I write about?

How about my day?


I could also write what's in my head, even the random stuff, type what's in my mind the moment I think it.


Am I daydreaming or am I fantasizing?

What's the difference?

Maybe fantasizing is more sexual while daydreaming is innocence.


I agree, nah.

Three pm
On my feet, I'm staggering.
You're only happy when I'm wasted.
All Time Low, Stella

Friday, July 21, 2017

Just Can't Believe What My Subconscious Sometimes Shows Me

My dream last night consisted of me breaking my water and about to have a baby. Was in the hospital, belly wasn't even that big to be pregnant. I'm not even pregnant in the non-dream world. Never even been with a single guy in my whole real life.

Wednesday, July 19, 2017